Hi everybody (If there’s anybody out there). My apologies for such delay since my last post. To be honest I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue writing on wordpress, I was thinking of moving to blogspot. Oh well, maybe I’ll do that, some day.
This will be a short post.
I’m a rather shy/introverted person in social settings or when meeting knew people one-on-one. My brain kind of freezes, and I don’t know how to respond to others during conversation. This experience isn’t limited to the real world, but also transcends to the online world. I really wish I had more confidence so that I could interact with people more. I have a twitter account, hardly any followers (mostly porn bots, lol), but now and then I get human followers, and sometimes they respond to my tweets. I can’t deal with that. It’s not like they say anything mean, not at all, in fact quite the contrary. Despite this, my brain freezes and I don’t know what to say in response. I fear I will say something wrong or offensive. So my head goes into ‘lockdown’. This results in my thinking over what I should write in my head for a good few hours. Eventually I give up, and forget. The next day I feel as it is too late, which in turn causes a feeling of guilt. What if the person thought I was being a snob for not responding? They must think I’m a mean person. 😦 This is probably why I don’t have many friends. However the good news is, the friends that I do have, I am very close to. For e.g. my bf and I are very close and I feel so comfortable with him. Though I think that says more about him than me, he’s a very welcoming and warm person. Bless his heart.
Well, that’s all for now. Hope to write again soon.