Hi everybody (If there’s anybody out there). My apologies for such delay since my last post. To be honest I wasn’t sure if I wanted to continue writing on wordpress, I was thinking of moving to blogspot. Oh well, maybe I’ll do that, some day.
This will be a short post.
I’m a rather shy/introverted person in social settings or when meeting knew people one-on-one. My brain kind of freezes, and I don’t know how to respond to others during conversation. This experience isn’t limited to the real world, but also transcends to the online world. I really wish I had more confidence so that I could interact with people more. I have a twitter account, hardly any followers (mostly porn bots, lol), but now and then I get human followers, and sometimes they respond to my tweets. I can’t deal with that. It’s not like they say anything mean, not at all, in fact quite the contrary. Despite this, my brain freezes and I don’t know what to say in response. I fear I will say something wrong or offensive. So my head goes into ‘lockdown’. This results in my thinking over what I should write in my head for a good few hours. Eventually I give up, and forget. The next day I feel as it is too late, which in turn causes a feeling of guilt. What if the person thought I was being a snob for not responding? They must think I’m a mean person. 😦 This is probably why I don’t have many friends. However the good news is, the friends that I do have, I am very close to. For e.g. my bf and I are very close and I feel so comfortable with him. Though I think that says more about him than me, he’s a very welcoming and warm person. Bless his heart.
Well, that’s all for now. Hope to write again soon.
Today wasn’t a great day. Nothing negative actually happened, but the weather was very humid and rainy after hot spell. Physically I felt drained and uncomfortable. I also didn’t have anything to do and you know the saying an idle mind is the devil’s playground. I’m also feeling a little stressed because I’ll be starting back at university next week. I had a long holiday (around 16 weeks) and with it coming to an end I can feel the pre-uni nerves kicking in again. I guess I’m just over school. I feel like a need a nice long break (which I did have, but the 16 weeks went too fast to even understand the word holiday). I wish it was Christmas time again. I don’t celebrate Christmas (I’m not a Christian) but I like fact that you think of time off when you think of Christmas. Oh well, soon 2013 will be over and I’ll be back on holidays.
Well, enough ranting from me. How have your holidays been? Did you have any?
Welcome to my first blog. I’ve been planning to start a blog for a few years now. I held back for a number of reasons. Firstly, I didn’t know what to name my blog. Until now, naming my blog felt like a big task, one that I wasn’t ready to take on. All good blogs have interesting, quirky names and I felt like all the good ones were taken. However with a little encouragement from a loved one I went ahead and started this blog, Kedi & Bear Cottage. The name is of great importance to me as it what my FH and I would like to call our future animal shelter (a lot of futures in there, oh well, more on that later). In Turkish (my background is Turkish) kedi means cat. As you will soon learn I love cats. Bear is the nickname of FH (he sounds like a bear and is cuddly hehe). Cottage, well because I love cottages. I can see myself living in a cottage doing crafts. The second reason as to why I didn’t start my blog was because I was afraid of writing. I was afraid of grammatical errors, sentences with no structure and meaningless paragraphs. The difference now is that I’m still afraid, but I no longer care of being judged. This blog is for me to have fun. So, my apologies in advance for my mistakes. I also think that the more you practice writing the better you will be at it. This blog will be a means for me to practice. The third reason as to why I didn’t start a blog was, well, because I can be a bit lazy at times. Before I end this introduction I feel it best to let you readers (if I have any) have a bit of an idea as to what this blog will be about. Lately I’ve been into beauty; makeup and nail products. I’ve also been into crafts; knitting, sewing, polymer clay. In this blog I aim to share with you all my reviews on products, makeup and clothes hauls, and other crafty things. I may also include the random vent about racism, or mean people. I’ll also try to share songs and movies I’m into and all that jazz.
That about sums up all I wanted to say for now. Thanks for reading my first real entry. I hope you guys enjoyed it and I hope I can be consisted with my entries.